Into the Ocean Blue

Today, I got in trouble for wearing this. Imagine this outfit without the belt and the skirt pulled down a little more to my knees (which is where it naturally sits). My grandmother made this skirt specifically long enough and to my knees so that I wouldn't get in trouble for it. It's three inches longer than mid-thigh in front and one and a half inches longer in back, so longer than it should be. Funny how other girls can run around and pass the teachers without a word going to them, all the while wearing tunics for dresses.

I go to her office and wait a little, my heart beating. I don't know what will happen. I don't know why I'm worried, I shouldn't be, I've done nothing wrong. She comes in a few minutes later and tells me to stand up, turn around, then face her again. I do. She says my skirt is fine, then later tells me that I'm "pushing it." I ask her if my tights have anything to do with it and she says yes, that they're "distracting" and that they "drew too much attention." She said I shouldn't wear them anymore and that the heels didn't help either. Yes, I am aware that heels elongate your legs, but that doesn't mean that your actual leg length is going to change. Heels are supposed to make your legs look longer. But your legs are going to stay their normal length even when you're wearing heels (unless heels magically give you a growth spurt and then a shrink spurt when you take them off). I totally understand why you don't want me to wear fishnet tights to school. I know when something's going to make you look like Santa's jolly laughter and I know that fashion can be a little on the.. unique side sometimes. I didn't think these tights were like that, I thought they were fun and a little quirky. People told me that they liked them, too.

So, the principle lady knows my name. When she told me to come to her office, she didn't have to ask my name. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't want her to think I'm "one of those girls" and that the reason I dress up is to cause distractions and try to be some sexy prostitute. I dress up because it's fun, what I like to do; I don't like looking like everyone else. I don't like it when someone doesn't like me or thinks something bad of me. Knowing something like that is equivalent to the feeling before a big test, but the feeling never goes away. It's still here haunting me, and even though I know the facing of the principle lady is over, it still feels like it hasn't come and won't ever come.

There's no person I know of who I have a grudge against or who has a grudge against me, and that's nice and how I like it and how it should be. I'm a good-minded person.. but I'm afraid that's not what she sees in me. She's nice about it and I know other people think she's a mean lady sent from Mars, but I honestly don't think she's mean. I know she's just doing her job and I respect that. I know it's not like she's targeting just me. It's not like she's purposely missing the girls who run around wearing tunics, I just think she could find someone better to ask to her office. I never ended up getting in trouble, but it still freaks me out and I don't want to be negatively known by the administration.

My current mood is definitely like a pigeon perched on a pile of poop (props to my English teacher for making that up).

Okay, but anyway, let us not bring bad news into the blogging world! On a happier note, thank you so much Nami for making this skirt! This one fits amazing and is long enough for school, mom and I measured it and everything and it's beyond perfect. Plus it's the cutest color! This week is a good week because I've completed all of my graduation exams and so all juniors and seniors get to come to school late (at 11:40!). My friend and I went to breakfast this morning and then sat in my car singing loudly-- err, yelling-- to the first five songs of Britney Spears' CD (with oops! I did it again on it) while pretending that water bottles were microphones. Our throats will definitely hurt tomorrow, but it'll be well worth it.


F21 tank and belt, Nami-made skirt, Body Central necklace, WM belt, Fioni heels